Love

You know you are loved when... =)

I have received a number of emails, thoughts and prayers in the last few days, which made me feel so much better.  You know how when you seem to be absorbed in yourself, you forget that there is a family out there, God's family, thinking of you and praying for you!  I need to remember that evermore in this crazy time.

Last night was a good night.  Kev and I did Bible Study on Philippians 3:1-14 and we got a chance to pray pray pray together.  It was a awesome time.  God spoke to me about some things that I had not noticed before in the passage.

 ¹²Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. ¹³Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, ¹⁴I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

I am not perfect, yet Jesus has taken a hold of me, he has called me his own.  As it says in Hebrews, he chose to call us his family.  I also believe that Satan has implanted in my mind some footholds in my life that I have not been able to let go of from my past.  But after praying last night with Kev, I continue to pray that I have truly left it up to God now.

Continue praying for me in my journey.  I love you all!

Exhaustion

I have been physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually exhausted these last few weeks.  I think with the changes that have been going on - school work, friends coming home, YMC - and all the stuff that I had already been doing - home stuff (cleaning, dogs, cooking, etc etc), Zoe, volunteer, tutor - just kept on piling and piling on top of each other and have caused me to become uber exhausted!

Last night at PM, I don't know if it was the atmosphere of the sanctuary on a Wednesday evening or the change of pace with the sermon, but I could not really concentrate and I felt quite sleepy to be honest.  At the end of the night, I was almost falling over because I felt so tired.  Joi commented on the bags under my eyes =(  But God still spoke to me regardless of the state of my body and mind.  The focus of the sermon was on Psalm 1, specifically the first 2 verses.  The second verse spoke to me more so:

But his delight is in the law of the LORD, 
       and on his law he meditates day and night.

I need to start meditating on His Word again.  And like a wise friend keeps reminding me, I need to rest in God, truly rest.

MIA

As per Vinci's comment to my last post, I have been MIA.  I have been so utterly drowned in so much stuff to do.  I want my life back!  Looking ahead to the summer it doesn't look like it is going to let up - however, there is the anticipation and joy that my parents will be home soon!

I want to see my brothers and sisters!  It's not like I am avoiding them like the plague, just so much to do and not enough hours in the day to accomplish it.

And to make matters worse, I have been slipping in my Bible reading and prayer.  This is actually my biggest concern and I've started to pray pray pray about it.  Why am I such an idiot?

Crossroads

That is where I was a few days ago, not totally sure on the direction I should be heading.  But I know that God has been giving me tangible signs on where He wants to lead me.  I need to pray more about it because I do not think I have done enough of that.  Please pray for me.

Go Jays Go!

Two weeks into the season, the Jays are red hot!  They have never started out the year like this, not even during the '92 and '93 seasons when they won the World Series!

I wouldn't say I am jumping on the bandwagon with the Jays becuase I don't think I ever jumped off! =p  I may have just been near the back of the wagon. ;)  But I still remember those years, 15 years ago! *sigh* This definitely dates me.  (sidenote: last year working at the camp, the other teacher and I were talking about when the Jays won the World Series - and the grade 6 kids we were teaching had no idea what we were talking about - we did some quick math and realized that they were not even born when they won!  Oh, how we felt so old!)  But those days were exciting remember watching the '92 and '93 seasons and both the World Series - so many random things - Devon White's catch at the wall, Kelly Gruber's "triple play," Joe Carter - amazing! Roberto Alomar at 2B, John Olerud's helmet, Dave Winfield's power at DH.  Only 2 weeks into the season and at Cito's helm, the Jays are back! =)

I found this picture in the Mississauga News a couple of weeks ago.  Love it!  And I love how there are 3 different Jays logos through the years! I think I still like the original as it appears on the foam finger =p  Enjoy!

((c) Steve Nease, 2009)

And it will ALWAYS be the Skydome!

Oh Happy Day...

This morning I woke up and just felt so happy and content.  As I was walking the dogs, I looked up into the sky and the joy just kept on flowing.  It was such an awesome feeling!  Oh, how I want to just live every day with this feeling!

Looking back on this past year, I can see so much growth and making smarter decisions to draw closer and closer to God.  It is only by grace that I am where I am right now.  It still boggles my mind when I think about the price that was paid to wash me of my sins and my relationship with God to be reconciled.  I was so incredibly dirty and nasty, yet God choose to place all of it on His son.  For this I am humbled and truly thankful.  I pray that I can awaken each day thanking Him for the perfect life Jesus lived and the shedding of Jesus' blood on the cross.  I so do not deserve it, but God was so gracious.

Curiosity

Based on an incident that happened outside my home today, it made me think how curious we are as human beings.  In addition, language expands this curiosity even further as it adds additional information that other animals do not have.

There was an accident that occurred outside my house this evening.  By the time I had noticed the flashing lights outside, the car that had crashed head-on into the tree had been moved onto a tow truck.  The occupants of the vehicle seemed to be doing okay and the police had already finished their initial investigations.

When looking out my living room window, I wondered in my mind how in the world the driver was able to crash into the tree.  He must have been going at high rates of speed around that bend as there was no percipation and the ground was not compromised at all.  I see my neighbour across the street observing all that was going on.  I wanted to go out and ask him what he had learned from his observations, but I got lazy and decided against it.  However, I waited around to see the damage the tree had done to the car and after everyone had left, I went outside to survey the damage.  It still boggles my mind how the driver got himself into this predicament.

As this was going on, I was thinking about how curious I was about seeing the damage to the car and finding out what actually had happened.  This led me to think about how curious we are as humans.  We always want to know what is going on, about people, places, and events.  For the most part, we want to be in the know.  We do not want to be left out.  We see this obsession with the likes of modern technology, like facebook and twitter.  However, there is this danger to curiosity, our need to know, with the devestating effects of gossip could have.  The stories get skewed, information is added or omitted, events are exaggerated or emphasized; but all in all for the most part, it usually never good.  And seriously, do we really have to know?