BR Convos

Last night after prayer meeting, Kelly was having the craving to go to BR for BBT and who am I to resist?!

Let me tell you, when it gets past 10pm - it seems like we get extremely silly and have bouts of deafness! Here are some of the conversations we had.

J - "I have a Sudoku trainer"
K - "We should play tomorrow!"
K - "I taught Cliff how to play Sudoku"
K - "You taught me?"
K - "I taught you?"
K - "You taught me?"
K - "I taught you?"
K - "You taught me?"
K - "I taught you?"
K - "You taught me?"
K - "I taught you?"

J - "You know where I could buy a fat clamp?"
V - "A what?"
J - "A fat clamp."
K - "Why don't you just buy a BMI machine?"

J - "I have all these books about how to eat properly to lose weight and calculating calories"
V - "Did those dumplings you just ate fit into your equation?"
J - "Dumb things?"
V - "Dumplings"
J - "What?! Dumb things?!"
J - "DUMB THINGS?!" (eyes grow wide)
K - laughing hysterically
K - trying not to spit out any bbt

Fun times indeed. This is what happens when you get old - you lose your hearing and you know you should be in bed by 11pm. =p

Look what I found!

Do not worry, I am now finished both assignments! *yay* for me!

But while I was procrastinating, I found another way to zap up my time, and another procrastination tool. Since I missed John & Kate Plus 8 last night, I wanted to see if TLC has them on their website, or else I'm going to have to wait until they replay it sometime. Alas, there were no episodes online, but there are John & Kate Plus 8 webisodes online, behind-the-scenes and never-before-seen scenes! So now I'm excited! =D

SOTM

This song kept running through my head while I was walking the dogs today. During these walks, I usually take time to pray for people - with my eyes open of course! - and often times worship songs will also spring into my head as I am walking.

Everlasting God ~ Chris Tomlin

Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord,
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord,
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord

Our God You reign forever
Our hope, Our strong deliverer

You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint, You won't grow weary

You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles

Our God You reign forever
Our hope, Our strong deliverer

You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint, You won't grow weary

You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles

God, You are everlasting

This song rang especially true to me with all that has been happening in recent days. My strength will definitely rise as I wait to see what God has in store for my life and I will wait upon him! He is my deliverer and strength through this tough time. And he is definitely my comfort right now - even with all the love that has abounded in the last few days, there are times when I can't be around those that love me, but God is ALWAYS there, in my times of worry and self-doubting, he is there comforting me!

Assignments

I really don't want to do these assignments right now. There is absolutely no motivation to do them, yet they are both due on Thursday. Thankfully they are pretty easy, but they still got to get done. Ugh.

Loved

Yesterday, my emotions and burdens got the best of me and they opened like floodgates while we (Richard, Felix, Kelly, Kat & Eleasa) were in the prayer room. It is hard for me at times to really open up but God was convicting me and to feel their love surround me and for their prayers was truly awesome.

This is what true fellowship is. This is what real love between brothers and sisters is.

I am so thankful that they are here, supporting me, praying for me, and just being there for me. I know that I am loved.

Spoken Word

So yesterday was again a little frustrating. I understand their concern as they are parents and all, but hearing it over and over again will not change the situation that I do not have a job - and it's not like I'm not doing anything to rectify this situation. But yes, I got the "lectures" again last night from various sources, and I was just getting fed up.

I feel that some of them should understand where I am coming from as they are Christians as well, but with my parents it is a little hard for them to understand that I am awaiting God's provision and timing for my life. Again, I do understand where they are coming - they want the best for me, they are looking out for me, blah blah blah... But what is so wrong with just WAITING?! I know that God has a plan for me, it's not like I am just a bum right now at home doing nothing - I have gotten myself involved in a number of things already, things that have in a way are overwhelming in themselves, see last post here, and on the plus side it is supplying me with an income of sorts. So why can't I just WAIT for God to provide - I have done all that I can so far, applications on VIP, speaking with ATs from last year, arranging opportunities to volunteer - and now I place it into the hands of the one that I know will deliver something for me. I was just so frustrated and upset last night - hearing, listening and reading that, it just brought me to tears. Like it's not like I don't know I have a teaching job yet, thanks for the reminder - it's my life and I want to live it as God has planned it! Just thinking and typing about it makes me upset and frustrated once again!

So, I turned to my Bible, because it is the only way I know that I can calm down and to speak to God through prayer. The Holy Spirit led me to 1 John. As I was reading through it, I got to 1 John 2:15-17, and it was just a confirmation from God that I need to wait for him to bless me and to disregard what others are saying, ignore the fact that other friends are getting jobs, and to RELY FULLY on the will of God.

15Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. 17The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.

I was much calmer after that, and was content with what I have, and am waiting upon what God has in store for me next. I meditated on the last few words "but the man who does the will of God lives forever." AMEN! I was then able to fall asleep with a heart that was not burdened and a mind that was clear.

Overwhelmed

So yesterday after tutoring and prayer meeting, I was still feeling overwhelmed with just stuff. I don't really know why, but I feel like I am being blessed by God with so many students to tutor, but now I'm just doing it as it comes - there is no passion in my teaching. I want that passion once again! I love to teach, but it could be that my student got less than great on an assignment we worked on together and I feel the indirect pressure from the mom as to why this happened - she is a lovely woman, but she is still paying for her son to do well in school, which is why I am there and yeah...

Then I get news (via FB) that another friend from teacher's college got on the supply list in Peel. I am happy for her, but at the same time a little jealous and frustrated that I have been unable to do so myself. I know I have to hold on to God's promises and trust in his timing, but it is just difficult again - just like how it was during the summer. I keep telling myself it is still rather earlier - it is only the beginnings of October - but I just see all my failed attempts since June when the postings started going up on VIP, it just gets depressing after a while. But at the same time I also know that I should be content with what I have been blessed with but for some reason I can not find that peace at the moment. I hate going on this rollercoaster.