Spoken Word

So yesterday was again a little frustrating. I understand their concern as they are parents and all, but hearing it over and over again will not change the situation that I do not have a job - and it's not like I'm not doing anything to rectify this situation. But yes, I got the "lectures" again last night from various sources, and I was just getting fed up.

I feel that some of them should understand where I am coming from as they are Christians as well, but with my parents it is a little hard for them to understand that I am awaiting God's provision and timing for my life. Again, I do understand where they are coming - they want the best for me, they are looking out for me, blah blah blah... But what is so wrong with just WAITING?! I know that God has a plan for me, it's not like I am just a bum right now at home doing nothing - I have gotten myself involved in a number of things already, things that have in a way are overwhelming in themselves, see last post here, and on the plus side it is supplying me with an income of sorts. So why can't I just WAIT for God to provide - I have done all that I can so far, applications on VIP, speaking with ATs from last year, arranging opportunities to volunteer - and now I place it into the hands of the one that I know will deliver something for me. I was just so frustrated and upset last night - hearing, listening and reading that, it just brought me to tears. Like it's not like I don't know I have a teaching job yet, thanks for the reminder - it's my life and I want to live it as God has planned it! Just thinking and typing about it makes me upset and frustrated once again!

So, I turned to my Bible, because it is the only way I know that I can calm down and to speak to God through prayer. The Holy Spirit led me to 1 John. As I was reading through it, I got to 1 John 2:15-17, and it was just a confirmation from God that I need to wait for him to bless me and to disregard what others are saying, ignore the fact that other friends are getting jobs, and to RELY FULLY on the will of God.

15Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. 17The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.

I was much calmer after that, and was content with what I have, and am waiting upon what God has in store for me next. I meditated on the last few words "but the man who does the will of God lives forever." AMEN! I was then able to fall asleep with a heart that was not burdened and a mind that was clear.