Change

Since last week's prayer meeting, I feel a total change in my perspective and heart.  No longer am I burdened to the point of tears nor do I feel the whole weight of the world on my shoulders.  This is only through the redeeming power of the Holy Spirit to calm my heart and lift the weight.  In addition it is crazy how God has done a total 360 in terms of my relationship with my mentor.  Last week she was carrying my burdens, being my listening ear, caring and praying for me.  This week has been the opposite and I am glad that God is continuing to refine and mold us and strengthening our relationship together and with Him.

So much has happened this week, God has definitely been speaking, however, I do not know if I have done an extremely good job at listening.  I have been reading through a few Psalms and they have spoken to me, given me comfort, and empowering me.  I do not think that I have actually done this before, really just go through the Psalms and reflect, meditate and pray about them.

God really changed my perspective on someone this past week and I know that it will be the best for our church.  Each day the sermon from Sunday still reverberates in my mind; how God demonstrates his love for us even though we don't deserve it, I am definitely a sinner and fall so far from the glory of God, but because of God's love for us he gave his one and only son to be an atoning sacrifice for us to die the most shameful death.  In reflection and talking with others about it, far too often I do not understand or fail to remember the depth of God's love for us and the what the cross symbolizes.  And further, thinking about the question that was posed at the end of the sermon, Do I know the love of God experentially?  And if I do, do I love people like God loves them or are they contingent on others?  I need to remember, the love of Christ came to me when I least deserved it.